So, my 2 friends that i have known in my early years have been skipping school lately. And then they go to me and they dumbly say, "I'm getting such bad grades, oh no what do i do?!" and then they start hyperventilating and i just have no words to say. Really it's their own damn fault they have sunk this low to the floor of grades worth dirt. It irritates me so bad because i'm tired of having to watch their backs when their doing shit like this. They know that this is the reason why they get bad grades, and yet they are panicking about it. If their going to regret it and panic about it later then they shouldn't even have skipped in the first place. Really. I keep TELLING them about how skipping isn't going to help them in school. And then they go and say "Well yelling at us isn't going to help either." LIKE WTF? I only tell them that cuz I care. I want to graduate with all my friends from my class. And how can anyone know if i'm yelling when i am talking to them over AIM or texting? I don't even use exclamation marks to show n e emotions to them. I am so mad because i'm only giving them advice, that they should focus on school because they promised their moms and dads. And right now they are dishonoring that promise and i don't like people who break their promises just because they are to lazy to get up, walk to school, pay attention, write, and then go home and do the homework. It ain't that hard. The both of them always have to make it seem like they have it so damn hard. There are other people out there that would give anything to be in school. They don't appreciate what they have. It's really a shame. I know that one of them wants to be a game designer and the other one wants to be a musician, like play the drum set and rock out on her guitar. But people who get to be those things, they worked hard and they organized their time and they bust their ass. These 2 just sit at home, pretend to be sick or something and then chill out at home while the people who work hard and deserve to be their dreams and goals work hard to prepare themselves for their jobs and future. Well I can see now, that my 2 friends most likely won't have futures. One thinks that he is rich that he doesn't need a job, that he can always rely on daddy. But money won't last him long, and he's stupid too, because he LOVES to spend his parent's money on his friends that he has known for maybe 1 week. And really do they want him as a friend, or for his money? It's so stupid because I have to TELL him not to get me anything ever, birthdays, Christmases and everything. I tell him not to get me anything, i tell him to save it himself and get into a good college so that he can work step by step to be a game designer. And his other friends, do they truly like him as a friend or do they just use him for his Money that he thinks he has? that is why i am so worried. This guy is like my brother and i don't want him to get into any crisis. And then my other friend. She wants to be a musician and go to this fancy musician college and then spend her entire life playing music. Well if she's gunna do that, they need to be on top everything so they can have the time to play. Like all those singers and what not. They had to work hard in school, all of those people were the smart ones who managed time wisely and were discovered. She doesn't see this and she expects to be like them? No way, if she keeps this up. It makes me so angry cuz I was talking with her on facebook and then i think she made some cheapo excuse to just sign off so she doesn't have to take my nagging. And really i only nag her cuz I care, she's always been like a sister to me, and i don't want to see her getting held back and not being able to graduate with our class. I really hope that they see my intentions in the way i want them to see. I want them to see that I am trying to help and that I only care.

What do you guys think about this? I know i can't change them and control them about the stuff they do, and really i don't care about the decisions they made. I just want my words to reach them at least, and then what they do from there i can only pray is to get their act together and to see my good intentions. That I care about what happens to them and their future. I want to make sure that in the future they will be able to take good care of themselves. I hope they see that soon. I really don't like them being angry at me when I was just trying to help.

Just came bak today from MB Camp. Was so super tiring, so glad to be home! I got sunburn... AGAIN!! Least it isnt as bad as it was last year. :\ I'm going to miss the seniors that are leaving. At least we still have a month together.

Oh! This year's skit was pretty funny. i got to rant in chinese at Dora the Explorer. Thank god the little girl needs a good yellin at. It was funny. But i didn't get to record it this year. T_T Aww, well i liked last year's one better n e way. XD

Today is the music banquet! I'm so nervous about it. I never really go to stuff like this really, but my friend begged me to go and she even paid for me... so she gave me no choice. But what really makes me nervous is that the guy that I like is going and idk.. He might be there with someone else, and I might feel a bit jealous. (nah, j/k) But maybe I might, cuz he's the guy that I started to like ever like since i broke up with my ex- boyfriend, cuz he wasn't treating me right. Always teasing me about being the death of people. He was talking about me behind my back, and you just don't say that to your girlfriend you know? But this guy seems funny and nice. I just can see it kind of, and him being my brother's friend, my brother confirms that he's a nice guy. I hope that everything turns out okay, and it's fun.

Recently I got into an argument with what I use to call my friend. At first I thought he was this guy that I could really trust and get along with, but boy was I wrong. He talked shit about all of us. Sean, Tali, Brandi, Kevin, Me, and my cousin. He said all these judgmental things that was so uncalled for. When I heard about it I was shocked and sad. Inside my friendship for him was just being scraped away. I didn't want to believe it at first, but as time passed I found that it was true. Here's what's always wrong with him, and what I couldn't stand:

1. He always thinks that he has to be right. First he insults me, and I always accept it even if it hurts. Then he took it too far and I got angry and threw his wallet at his face. Really it was him that provoked it. He didn't need to insult me to talk to me. And he knows that I hate being insulted in the way he insulted me that day. And he didn't want to apologize.

2. He always thinks we're immature, but really he is the one that is immature. He told us that people don't listen to Japanese anime music, but really he's the one that listens to it. I catch a shit load of them on his I-pod, who's the immature fuck bitch now?

3. He's hypocritical. He says he'll never judge people, but really he was judging us all to begin with.

4. He's disgusting. He does all this disgusting stuff and right in front of us. Everything about him makes me cringe. And worst of all he cheated on my cousin- with a GUY. He was saying that there were flaws with her. HELLO! SHE FUCKING LIKED YOU! AND IF YOU THOUGHT THAT SHE WASN'T PERFECT THEN WHY DID YOU DATE HER AND HURT HER IN THE END?! He really has no consideration for people.

5. He blames people. He says that my friend who told me that he was doing all this says the same things about me. That I am not too girly enough. And because of that I'm bi-sexual. I don't hate bi people. I just don't like it how people just judge you. Right now with the economy as it is. I have to make use of what I already have. I have to save money to help my family. I told them that.. but they don't understand. I even bought girly clothes to show him wrong. Idk if Sean does say that I don't dress girly enough. And if he does, I won't be angry. He knows that I need to save the money. He understands. Tali, Brandi and Kevin understands too. Only Tali, Kevin, Brandi, Sarah, Halley, and Sean and basically everyone that was there for me that day at school understands me.

6. He tries to act like someone else around what he calls the "cool and popular people." When he's around us, he acts crazy and like his original self. But when he's around those Hawaiian people or whatever they are. He's like a fucking poser. He deepens his voice and uses pigeon words like "brah." He is just so fucking unbearable.

There was a fair chance that I was going to forgive him for calling me bi sexual. But then there were all of a sudden people walking up to me asking if I was bi. I knew that it must have been him. So i got more mad that he started rumors. Then he hurt my cousin. I found out he did something disturbing and told my cousin. She had the right to know. I won't say how he hurt my cousin. But he hurt her really bad. I have NEVER seen her cry in my entire life. She's always so cheerful. And then when she gets together with that fucking fag, that's the time I see her cry. From the couple months that they were dating he only took her out ONCE. ONLY FUCKING ONCE. All those times he could have been with my cousin making her more happy, he was at my other friends house jacking off in front of the fucking computer. And worse it was gay porn and shit. That's gross. How can he even do that when he's dating someone?! I accept him for being bi sexual but that ain't right. I'm thinking that since he's bi sexual, he wants to cover up the fact that he is one, by making up FUCKED UP LIES that I'm bi sexual. He made us suffer this much. Now it's his turn. He keeps apologizing, but i know it's all empty sorries. That if I do forgive him, he's going to go and talk shit more. I don't need him, I don't need his friendship. I just need my other friends. No matter how you look at it. He can only be himself around us. Around his other friends, he uses that stupid tough, pigeon, Hawaiian shit. I'd like to see him act the way he does around us with those people. They would probably drop him as a friend. I HATE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I HOPE HE GOES TO HELL.

Was bored so I decided to update my journal. So I'm going to band camp this week. I know it'll be fun, but intense... My cousin will be there and it'll be like a party. The only thing that sucks is that auntie flow will probably be visiting by that time... So I'm going to be doing this skit with my section at the time at camp. It's funny because it involves Naruto and power rangers. And I hope team Naruto wins. ^^ So I borrowed my friend's Gaara costume, and we're going to use Gaara's sexy to save the day. lol.

Yeah.. Hopefully band camp gives me the opportunity to get more homework done. And I can ask my MB friends to help. I really need to study for the retake of my bio quiz. I like that class... and I need to start writing those open audience things that can win me like $100! O.o I can use that to buy that $612 PSP of crisis core. Hopefully they still have.. if they don't... I'll cry.... Social studies ain't bad, but I should read the actual book. I hate reading text books.. I like reading vampire books more (twilight series!)

Well basically it was me rambling about my day. Sorry if this wasted like minutes of your life. Oh well, probably won't be missed when I'm gone at camp... TT.TT He's going to wake us up early with that military trumpet song... and we have to carry senior's bags... and going on kitchen patrol.. It's like boot camp.. *whimpers* save me..